To Text or Not to Text...There Isn't A Question

So much to say, so few words available to really drive my point home. My place is not great, and my mindset has been mutilated by disappointment, confusion and complete lack of faith in my fellow man. Yes MAN. I don't hate you yet, but you guys sure make it hard on a girl. I'm gonna do a list...because they are effective and people like 'em. Especially me.

Things to never do if you have one ounce of respect for the intended target:

1. Break dates via text messaging.
2. Deliver bad news via text messaging.
3. Deliver good news via text messaging.
4. Make dates via text messaging.
5. Text message more than 15 times in a day, without making a phone call to that same person.
6. xoxo in a text message, if you haven't spoken to that person in more than a week.
7. Break up with someone by refusing to answer a text message.
8. Abbreviate or bastardize the english language using text-speak.
9. Communicate soley with anyone via text messaging.

PICK UP THE DAMN PHONE!!!

For all you boys out there...texting can be fun, and flirty. There's no doubt about that. And used as an extension of good communication, can help keep people connected in a very cool way. But, used in any of the ways outlined above, and your relationship is doomed to fail. This is not rocket science, my friends. Human contact must occur in order to keep the tingle alive. Live it, breathe it, and for your own sake and the sake of your significant other - don't text it!

The Fear of Being Found

What happens when you make lost, the way, that you just are? Do you dress yourself in fear with a matching bag made out of comfortable and some nice "safe" shoes? Maybe you sneek peeks to the outside with an elaborate system of mirrors that allows you to see around every corner. Always seeing what's coming, way before it can catch a glimpse of you. Maybe you have a moat, and a scary beast that keeps the walls secure. Maybe your pale face has long since failed to reflect light, so you just blend into the tapestry, and become it, making it impossible to discern where you start and it stops. Maybe people get tired. And maybe you make it difficult. But if one of them happens upon you in a moment of weakened defense, and manages to warm your cold skin with a simple smile, found is what you then become. Whether you like it or not.

Is Anybody Out There?

I know, it's been a long time since we shared any quality time together. You know how much I love you though, and I'm pretty sure you love me too. So let's just get on with it, shall we?

Isolation was the name of the game in 2008. Tongue-tied and too confused to put more than a couple of sentences together, my refuge has been silence. Or at least what passes as silence for most people. Silence, the beautiful sound of surrender. And that's what I've been doing for the last year. Surrendering. Not to be confused with giving up. Just turning myself over to the universe and letting it have it's way with me. Interesting how that turned out. I've contemplated all kinds of new and old ideas. I've examined my faith, in people, places and myself. I opened myself up to love, intimacy and achieved greater depths of understanding. I'm a different person today. Better, I think. But I'm ready to make the universe mine again. And thankfully my voice is coming back. I look forward to sharing it. Hopefully you are still out there listening....